Wake your dreams.

After trial and error, everything is becoming pretty complete.

I don't know if its because its finally summer or what but everything feels so good.
I realized after how horrible I did this year in college I really need to step it up, I really feel like its time to move on and away from the comfort of home. Everything with everyone is so good to, I don't feel like typing, peace.



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Calendar of Events :

April -


May-


June-
6/5 - 6/12ish - Ocean City.


July-
7/9-7/12 - All Good.

7/14- Warped Tour.




and other stuff.


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Point me to the truth and make me learn.

Everything I have but never earned.


Sometime I think about how I'm a shitty person,
but in all reality I think you're worse, perhaps that's why you're in my life.




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To be sure of tomorrows tomorrow

Too late is too late for me and you
No more time left for you to borrow.

Ekkk, I love Oceanlab. Today's the last day of "spring break" I guess you could say. Not like it's that big of a deal considering it's not like Hcc isn't anything more than Harford High ha. I don't know why I'm even updating I don't have much to even say. I hate the internet and to lazy to ever update. I need to do something I know is right but in no way do I feel like doing it. I make dumb desicions sometimes blahblahblah. W.E time to smoke and clean and tan haha. woo fuckin who.


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Work.

I haven't even started this season and from what I was looking forward to I'm now dreading. I don't feel like going back for the pure fact is I feel like I'm going to start missing out from working so much. At least I won't be completely poor now considering I have horrible spending habits and all. I really wish I could actually just save money for once and stop buying ridiculously stupid stuff. But that would probably never change. I forget the real reason behind posting this was going to be but its whatever.

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Ridiculous.

It's really sad how immature some people really can be. I am one to admit my immaturity and I can learn from that. I'm not the same person I was who used to get mad when someone "gay" listened to the same band as me, had the same shoes/shirt and or "copied" my hair. Nor am I that person who goes to shows in general and bash on younger kids, that's sad, I admit I was like that when I was 15 but I'm almost 19 I don't need to act like that. You claim to be a good person, have respect for others and care about something you believe in, but in all reality your just as bad if not worse than the people your bashing on. How do I know, but because I was the same way, and if I ever put anyone through hell like that, well than krama is a fuckin bitch to me back.


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Holistic

Health is surprising pretty interesting, and goes back on almost everything I thought good about medicine. I actually paid attention in class today with no distractions from Alejandro since he wasn't there today. It's interesting to think if you cleanse your mind you can over all be a healthier person. Although I believe in being posi anyway, with the world as fucked up there's always so much negative aspects on everything. I wish religion and politics didn't play so much of a rule into world peace, it can never happen with those two things that so many people have different views on. I'm thinking about majoring in something with environmental science and health and somehow getting a minor in business. Works out well because those are the three things that somewhat interest me besides math.

I always say I'm going to find the good in people, hasn't happened yet and probably never will. I realize I used to be so judgmental when I was younger to people who were noobs to what I was into, funny thing is although I haven't changed that much I feel like I'm the one who is completely new to everything ughh. I wish no one knew me from the past, but it's cool. I am who I am, it's still funny how people remember you years later, ah.


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This is redemption.

This is our lives washed clean.

This weekend was quite good.

Friday- was alright, I went to the gym with Lo and Stacy, than went to subway. Didn't really do to much at night, I was going to go to Justin's to hang out with Ericka, Kyle and other people but was pretty tired and just went to sleep.

Saturday- was pretty exciting. Woke up at 8:30 to go to the gym but didn't so me and lauren went tanning and than played tennis with Natalie and this girl Vicky. Such a great work out not. For lunch me and Lauren went to Panera than to the mall to get a shirt. After we got ready and Stacy came over and we pre gamed for the Hole and went with Jim and Sam. It was fun, more awkward than previous times, but it's whatever. Met new people as always. La de dah.

Yesterday- was also good. It was extremely warm out thank god. Woke up went tanning and than went to lunch with Stacy and Lo. Even though I was so tired, I went out with Cindy and Shea and we went to falling branch, for a whole 5 minutes than we went to starbucks and barns and noble. We played I SPY for about what 3 hours than finally left, I fell asleep at 8:30 o_O woo.


Today- just got home from class and hustlin soooo lets see what goes on later.
PEACE.

Cover up
All that we've become
Don't let the world
Take the best of you

And I can see a clearing
This will all come to an end
And we'll meet face to face
It will all work out in the end


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We did it with the worst intentions

I'm such a pain in the ass sometimes, than I end up feeling so bad.
Today was exhausting, I went to class, came home, than picked up Lo, and met up with Allie, Suz, and Stacy at the bank, than went tanning. After went to Stacy's and went to the gym. After left and went with Lo and Natalie and chilled. Than got my taxes filled out. I wish my mom would stop fuckin' claiming me, but I get the extra money out of it anyways, but still I'm like fuck it. At least shes basically paying half for the beach thank god. God damn I'm so ungreatful ugh. I found out something I'm glad to know, but its just shitty knowing it, and that someone would intentionally lie to make themselves look wanted. That's really sad, almost 98% of the things that come out of my mouth are completely truthful, the other 2% is probably scarcasim. I wish everyone else would do the same.

Question: Why is it that people crave attention so much, and make up shit to make other people pissed? ughhh.

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Temptation

I love the 1 am IMs saying to chill, and drink or smoke.
I had class at 8 anyways, not realizing we had a delay from a dusting of snow, who would have thought. I was tried as anything and woke up and went there, than finding out I didn't have class till 9:35, so I went over Stacy's. Watched the same boring moving in holistic health today than came home, here I am. Now I'm going to the gym so peace. Oh and I'll probably start using this again instead of livejournal, we will see.

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